* Sometimes I ponder about what I will think about my life when I'm older. Such as when I'm 55 or so, will I think back to my twenties and thirties and think what a waste? or will I think about how I tried to live my life the best as I could at the time. I like to think of this and try to be carefree (or dare I say, foot loose & fancy free?!) This helps me make some decisions and not be so damn responsible and boring.
* I will never look at a pineapple the same again. Thank you Dan, for coming into my life to let me know that they are the int'l food for "welcome"
Now, where the hell did you go so fast, come back before I lose interest....you're not done chasing me!
* Friday, 22nd, LBG is the place to be..... who from Dallas even reads this LJ anyway, so not that it really matters. All my D-town friends are anti-LJ and pro-MS.
Things I really want to learn!!!
- Spanish
- Scuba
- Massage Therapy
Okay, i'm done, just had to get that out.
"my kitty's gone, gone for ever
he will be gone and come back never
my kitty is dying
while i sit here crying
my kitty has gone away
but i'll get another one in a few days
my new cat will not be the same
as i sit here trying to think of a name
i love my kitty and miss him such
and i think i'll love my new kitty just as much"
written by me at the age of 10 - thanks for keeping it, mom :)
My mom's photography taken in Wister, Oklahoma:
http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=181v
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Kit, have you seen it? You'd enjoy the witty humor.
"When you're an egoist, none of the harm you do is intentional."
"Most of our waking like is taken up by thinking to ourself."
"Everyone has some contraditions."
"Playing strip poker with an exhibistionist somehow takes the challenge away."
"I warn you, he's a Fourierist."
T: "He seems less pessimistic than you."
C: "I know, it doesn't ring true!"
F: "I'll be going now. I have nothing to say and I'm completely boring without a drink."
T: "It's only midnight, you can't go."
F: "I'm sorry but without the cocktails, staying up all night loses its charm. Besides I haven't had anything amusing to say since I stopped drinking."
T: "Did you have anything amusing to say before you stopped?"
F: "I know, but it seemed amusing, now it doesn't."
T: "Well, you were asleep!"
- Twice in one day different men told me their favorite album was Appetite for Destruction. Nope, just can't find anything to talk about if that's your #1.....call me shallow, or selective, don't care. I'd rather be single than settle.
- I'm getting frustrated about money once again. My savings has $0.00. I live paycheck to paycheck. And I still don't know how I'm going to afford to go to MD in Sept. I will though! Even if I have to get a new credit card (if i get approved - ha!) and charge my flight, I'm going to be there for the Craig & Kayce's wedding, damn it. I need a second job...selling dope seems profitable but selling my body would be easier. Hrm???
- I wanna be a floating marshmellow.
- I am addicted to true crime, murder mystery shows (like 48 Hours).
- I guess I'll just have to wait to get certified in scuba until next year. =(
- This summer has been, um.....what's the word - "eyebrow raising interesting"
1. South Beach peanut butter high protien cereal bar (fricken love 'em so much!)
2. One cup of coffee
3. Ice water
4. Can of Turkey chili (no beans) w/ my left over Diet Big Red
5. One mango (it was the sweetest and juiciest mango I've ever tasteded)
6. Oats & Honey Nature Valley Bar (cause it was free)
7. One strawberry blow pop
8. One Dos Equis 12 oz. bottle
9. PB crackers
the end.

Love you always, "Grandma #2." You're Jennifer's angel now.
http://www.turrentinejacksonmorrow.com/d
Speaking of neighbors....
I have a new one. My upstairs neighbor, Angela, got married and moved out. Now, there's a BOY living above me! :):):) I haven't had a chance to get a good look at him, only in quick passing. But he drives a red Honda Magna bike. rawr! Should I bake some cookies and put them in tupperware w/ a note saying "welcome to the 'hood! for more sweetness, come downstairs...." :p
lol.
(my neighbor across the street)

Her hair, I want it. I want it, her hair.

Mine is sooo boring. I need more volume...oh and a professional hair stylist everyday. :p
Currently I'm going to school down the street (main & lamar) next to the Bank of America Plaza (neon green skyscraper for you non-Dallasites) and I'm so excited about having an opportunity to go to a public law school in DOWNTOWN. And in such a beautiful, historic building! How cool is that? =)
*shoots finger to SMU Dedman* :p
Life is always a polarity. If there were no darkness there would be no light. If there were no trouble there could never be any peace. If the sun always shone you would not appreciate it. You have to learn sometimes through conditions that seem a nuisance. One day you will look back and say, "We learned our best lessons not when the sun was shining, but when the storm was at its greatest, when the thunder roared, the lightning flashed, the clouds obscured the sun and all seemed dark and hopeless". It is only when the soul is in adversity that some of its greatest possibilities can be realised. 
My friends, Wonderfool, are headlining a show at The Door/Prophet Bar Saturday, June 14th. It’s sure to be a fun night, so come out and support great local music!

See you there! Julie, if you & Kit aren't busy - come out :)
* Oi. I'm gonna be so tired and cranky this summer! I gotta start getting to work @ 7am now, leave at 4, drive to the train station to get to school 5 nights a week, and not get home until after 9pm. And use my weekends to do homework...FUN! I'm going to be exhausted!!! Yet I still need to find the time to be active since I can’t exercise after work. And I must buy a laptop! I won't be able to afford the time it takes to go to the library, write everything down in a notebook, then go home and type it. Plus it'd save me from having to make copies of all the statutes and cases.
* Saturday, Jennifer and I are going to HoB to see Who’s Bad – the #1 Michael Jackson tribute band in honor of the King of Pop’s 50th birthday this August. http://www.whosbadmusic.com/ I’ve always been an MJJ fan but after Dangerous came out in 1991, I became obsessed. Soon thereafter, Jenn adopted my obsession and we would watch his concerts, record everything we could (you should’ve heard the squee-fest when Oprah interviewed him in ’92), clip magazine articles, scratch out faces of his dates, write him letters and poems, write down lyrics over and over in order to memorize them etc. Ya know just silly teenage fangirl stuff. In high school (my sophomore year), I would wear my MJJ pin on my shirt everyday to support him in this child molestation charges, which I got much slack for. I will always have a special place in my heart for Michael, but the love of his music died for me after the release of “blood on the dance floor.” It was all down hill after that. And I haven’t seen my cousin in 6 months!!! I don’t know if that’s an AJ record, but pretty damn close.
*I got my converter box from Radioshack (don’t even bother going to Wal-Mart, they have dust on the shelf where the converter boxes used to be). Silly Govt, ppl use analog! With my $40 govt. coupon and free shipping, (they can’t keep them in stock, no room, ship from warehouse) it was dirt cheap. I get 6 more Spanish channels now, oh yay! And if I ever want to watch the traffic and hear the air traffic controllers at DFW Int’l Airport, I turn it to Channel 8-2. ;-)
* After work yesterday I went to Kroger on Marsh & Beltline. I was putting grocery bags into my trunk when a middle-aged man approached me. [Rule number one: Never under any circumstances approach a woman alone in a parking lot!] He got into my “comfort zone” and started telling me his name and where he was from. I backed away as he continued to talk about his broken down car, “which is right over there” …. *pointing to the end of the parking lot*. I didn’t turn to look and walked to get in my car while telling him I was sorry but couldn’t help him. As I got in and drove away, the male shoppers in the parking lot were staring him down. His intentions were obviously not good, so I went home and notified the Addison Police Dept. Which reminds me, I need to get a stun gun. I’ve never been harassed on my daily trek to downtown Dallas where there are plenty of shady characters, but it’s when I’m in my North Dallas suburb I get harassed and almost burglarized (remember a few Halloween’s ago?). Go figure.
Here's an excerpt from one of the pages I read last night:
"There are things we never tell anyone. We want to but we can’t. So we write them down. Or we paint them. Or we sing them. Maybe we carve them into stone. Because that’s what art is. It’s our only option. To remember. To attempt to discover the truth. Sometimes we do it to stay alive. These things, they live inside of us. They are the secrets we stash in our pockets and the weapons we carry like guns across our backs. And in the end we have to decide for ourselves when these things are worth fighting for and when it’s time to throw in the towel. Sometimes a person has to die in order to live."
*long, loud sigh* I’m bored and lonely. I need to start class again. At least it keeps my mind busy. Idle Angela is no bueno! All work and no play make Angela a dull girl.
And when I say “play” I mean socializing. I didn’t see or talk to one person over the 3 day holiday weekend and I need company. I need to go out and be in the company of others. There is too much time spent with myself in the apartment where I’ve been living since May 2004. (sheesh) My good friends live too far away and gas is too expensive. I’m really getting sick of myself. There is only so much solitude one can allow before wanting the companionship of another human being. I haven’t given up on the affection/sex part of companionship, but it doesn’t consume me or control my actions. I just want people to keep me in their lives. I do still exist…I think?
Oh and in other news…I don’t actually hate 8am-5pm. I’m learning about Export Law and Contracts/T&C’s so it’s new and something to look forward to, instead of same old mechanical design day in day out.
Sooooo...is anyone reading this? Besides you, Jimi? You always read and comment. :) Thank you.
Reason for lack of entries: livejournal is blocked at work.
